Now back to my regularly scheduled program ...

Now back to my regularly scheduled program ...


Now that that's over I can get back to my life. In this particular instance I am referring to the craft fair but there are several things that fall into that category. Over the past week there has been several endings and some settling of thoughts and feelings.At the end of September I felt like I had such a clear plan for what I wanted Annelise and my future to look like and then along came October and life started to chip away at my plan and weaken my resolve to the sort of future I had planned. Maybe it's just in my nature to sabotage any plan I make or maybe the Universe was just throwing me a few curve balls to shake things up and make me reconsider.It all sort of culminates this weekend. The craft fair was Friday and Saturday. I did okay. Not great. And now I'm a little concerned that I didn't open the online store this year especially when I found out the other show I had planned to do in December isn't going to happen. So what I made over the weekend is it. And it's not going to be enough to hold us over. I'm trying not to panic too much. It's not nearly as bad as last year and I survived that.The last several weeks every free moment has gone into getting ready. It has been go, go, go. And now that its over I can stop. I can exhale. And maybe as I exhaled all that other stuff went with it. Or maybe it was because after all the busyness of the last few months I was finally able to sit still. And in those slow moments I was able to think, reflect, contemplate and in some situations put two and two together to realize there were some situations and relationships that I just needed to let go of.Of course I was extremely exhausted, mentally, physically, and emotionally. But I woke up Sunday morning feeling very relieved and ready to move forward. I am a little nervous about the financial aspect of our lives over the next few month, but hopefully if we live frugally it will be fine. Thankfully I already purchased her big Christmas present, so I only have a few little things to pick up.I spent yesterday trying to get my house back in order. I still have a lot to do, I let a lot of things go. Hopefully now I'll have time to blog more.